末日

末日前10秒

你不需要拼了命地来到我身边

因为我早已经奋不顾身地向你冲去

秘密

我唯有将喜欢过你的证据一一摧毁

然后催眠自己说没有爱过你

再若无其事地继续生活

random thought

life has been busy since i returned to malaysia from abu dhabi. Continued working in worleyparsons as if nothing happened. the workload is like crazy as i have been required to stay back for work and returned to the office on the weekends. presumably it is good to myself as the learning curve has become even steeper compared to last year. more local and overseas job opportunities recently but i guess i will stay in wp for at least a year. i appreciated the effort that the boss has made in accepting my return unconditionally. i shall focus more on the career at the moment and strive as harder as possible. i am confident that i will be a very competent engineer in the future. :)

Learn

It is fantastic if a brand new day starts with appreciation as very often we tend to neglect the things surrounded us and take it for granted.

时间

我发现我变了

变得不再不切实际

而是有规划地一步步实现理想

同时间我也发现

我再也写不出天马行空的文章

取而代之的却是现实生活的写景

是时间改变了梦想

还是改变了我

Thoughts at night

今天觉得不是很开心，仿佛少了某些东西似的。不晓得为什么心情总是特别沉重，这样的感觉就好像当年无法被政府大学录取医学科，久久无法释怀。我放弃一个人人都会羡慕，都会希望自己能得到的机会。同时，这一次的错过不知道几时才能再次获得一样的机会。一切都回到了原点，而此刻的我真的很失落。

我不停地说服自己别再执著，不要再去想起这件事情。但人非圣贤，这样的举动只会让自己陷得更深，然后无法自拔。

人总是要为自己所做的决定负起责任。我会给自己一段时间将所有的不愉快沉淀，然后再次出发。

抱着你

只身来到陌生的城市

尽管灯光多么珣烂

街道多么繁华

此刻我想要的却是

一个真真实实的拥抱...