You are my most intimate stranger

最后

我们还是变成最熟悉的陌生人

a letter to heaven

grandma used to ask me: 

"would you take care of me when i am old?"

i used to say yes and she would always return me a gracious smile. 

she will then say:

"dont think i have the chance"

"why?"

"because I will be very old by that time.."

those were the times when i was a kid and could still sit on her lap. 

it has been more than a year since grandma left us, but i still miss her everyday.

before she has gone,

she taught me how to love a person selflessly.

after she has gone,

she taught me how to appreciate things that i have.

ah ma..

if i had the chance to hold your hand again, i will tell you everyday how much i love you.

counting down

my days are numbered, till the day i return home.

it is not too far from now. :)

Random

will sign up the swimming classes soon.

it is time to pick up the swimming skill. :)

and i will master the guitar skill one day.

been flying

Dream big. Dream high.

Seize the moment - It may appear only once in your life.

再见

亲爱的

用力哭过就会好了

没有掉不完的眼泪

就把所有的一切变成回忆的一部分

然后不回头的走下去

Dreamchaser

YOU said: dont forget to chase dreams 
but how to dream without you?

You found me

Where were you?


You were once in my heart.

Update as of July 2012

guess it is the time to update this long abandoned blog.

been busy with work lately and sometimes i had to work on weekends up to 5am in the morning. anyhow this is good because time passes swiftly. a friend said there is certain stage in life which you do not require work-life balance. this quote sounded really true as we should strive harder while we still could. alone in the uk, apart from anticipating the trips ahead honestly there is nothing much to do other than work. i would say with these combination of factors this would push me a lot harder in terms of career which i reckon it is good to the future. 

getting used to the life in the uk. start planning trips and found out there are so many interesting places to visit. covered few places in the uk such as cambridge, glasgow, edinburgh and nottingham. been to the 1st europe country which was dublin. soon will be going to germany by the end of this month. therefore.. in terms of saving i could not really save much as there are so many things which i think i should give it a go. money always comes with experience so i believe i can do better in future. 

forgot to mention that it is good to have friends in the london because i can consistently explore the places in london which i have never been to. will keep exploring to find out what is new out there.


few goals yet to be achieved but i will slowly make them all true. 

Notting Hill

been to notting hill today

this reminds me of the movie "notting hill"

i miss you :)

Random

hmm quoting the same old sentence - how time flies.

this is the second month in the uk and it is almost over. the weather has been good lately and it seems summer is near (or already is). can see people smiling and apparently everyone seems to have good mood with big smiles on their faces. 

been busy lately with work too. not much complaint as everywhere is the same. i guess it is just depending on how you cope with the stress. demand or request from seniors/ leads could be unreasonable but who cares - if you were the one who has been assigned on that particular job, please get it done on time or else people would just blame that you are not effective/ efficient enough. hmm. surviving skill plays an important role. lol. 

sister in law has just delivered few days ago and the baby girl - my niece looks cute! i think everyone must be very happy with the newborn but too bad i cant really share the joy. called mom once and heard the baby cried. it is an indescribable feeling, somehow feel very touching.

in year of 2012, i am glad that i am still achieving the goals that i have been set. 

a letter to grandma

this is the first mother's day without your presence
people always say time heals
i know it works out well up to a certain extent
but not on a special occasion like this


memories are flashing back
i start to reminisce the old times when you were still around
your voice, your advice and your graciousness
looking at the pics made my heart wrenches


if i were given a chance to meet you again
i would tell you how much i love you..


thanks for showering me with love 
you will always be with me on my mind

Dream

hi

i am weng hoong

i used to dream a lot

how to fly high up in the sky

how to dive deep under the sea

the future ahead is always filled with uncertainties

i am not sure how far i could go

but i will continue to dream

until they have all come true

wish me luck

Growth

time flies. 


it seems like things are getting back on the right track after spending 5 weeks in the uk. i have already stopped counting how many days i am in the uk, guess this is one of the positive changes. 


unexpectedly the workloads in this company are heavy. time given to complete a task could be ridiculously unreasonable. for instance a study which was supposed to finish in 5 days but the senior forced me to finish in 3 days. i dont mind working overtime, it is just that they should have considered things like this is my first time working on such a study and i would expect myself to spend more time in studying the cases before producing the report. this will in fact affect the quality of the work produced. 


well... i am not complaining but just want to express my thought. fortunately things have been turning out on the good side whenever i encountered problems. the director had revised the hours and i have been allocated 5 days to finish this particular work. after all every cloud has its silver lining. =)


will be off to scotland later and hope this trip could rejuvenate my tiring mind before returning to the battlefield. 

missing you

忘不了

Grievance

black and white seems to be very important especially consensus has to be made in between different parties.


i was supposed to be provided with 1st month free accommodation in the uk but i had only stayed in the hotel for one week due to the fact that i managed to find a room therefore i moved out earlier. prior to moving out i spoke to the admin if i could have the remaining balance from the hotel expenses credited into my account since i move out earlier. she agreed that this should not be a problem. things went well and i moved to a new place and was waiting for the 1st month salary. 


unfortunately when i checked my account balance today i found out that they never banked in the remaining balance into my account. i spoke to the boss with regards to this and what he told me was that i will not be paid anything from the balance. i was like wtf because this contradicted with what the admin and i had agreed. he further explained that: "you are not supposed to make any money from the company through this way, by right you should have found your accommodation prior to coming to the uk and in fact the company is not going to take the responsibility for funding your stay in the uk".


i was quite surprised when he told me this, didnt we agree that i will be provided with 1st month accommodation in the uk because this is my 1st time coming to the uk? didnt we agree that the balance will be credited into my account if i were to move out earlier? i could not really find a place in the uk not until i have seen the places and rooms myself. cant he understand this basic theory that i am not supposed to simply rent a room without viewing the room and its surrounding, as well as the safety aspect? if i never moved out earlier then i do not have to pay for the 1st month rental in advance. when i was trying to explain this to him what he told me was "we appreciate that you have found a room this quick and save the company money". @@


alright i am foolish enough that i did not instruct the admin to prepare a black and white stating that the refund will be credited to my account. somehow the boss is wrong to comment me saying that i am trying to make the money from the company through this cheap skate way, i never looked for a room before coming to the uk and etc. 


this is very insulting and it really hurts! A good lesson learnt indeed.


do allow me to do this.. £"£^$"^%£&$*&%(^*(&^)&)(*&)(*)(

在英国的日子

(一）

2012年3月30日，就在飞机起飞的那一刻，我的心也跟着划出了一道长长的伤痕。看着飞机荧幕上显示的距离是一万六百零八点二八公里时，心里不禁揪了一下。这一次我必须离开家人和朋友，只身远赴人生地不熟的地方展开属于自己的冒险。没错，我再一次离开马来西亚。上一次毅然决定到中东而体验到的不好经验并没有中止我想向外闯的念头，毕竟所有遇到的挫折确实地让人生上了宝贵的一课。然而这一次的目的地是我所向往已久的地方- 英国。不晓得在什么时候总会作着这样的梦，梦想自己总有一天会去到不同的国家闯出一片自己的天空。或许人生里总是会有太多的遗憾，所以为了减少错过的机率，我顺理成章地接受了英国的工作。尽管背地里有许多的人冷眼旁笑，打赌着说或许这一次只能熬过一个月然后打退堂鼓回国。当然也有不少良朋知己的支持和祝福，就像冬天里的一股暖流，雪中送炭。所有的一切哪怕它是好是坏，到最后都会成为人生的旅程碑。坐在飞机里头一个人想了好多好多，对未知的期待和对家人、朋友还有自己的承诺。如果说不害怕那一定是他妈的在骗着别人，骗着自己。

过了十三小时零五分钟，终于抵达英国伦敦国际机场，当地显示的时间是下午4时15分。对上了自己手上手表的时间- 11时15分，心里难掩不舍地将时间换上当地的时间。总共是7个小时的时差。下了飞机后迎面而来不再是温暖的阳光而是刺骨的寒风，说真的这样的感觉还来的蛮特别。匆忙地领取行李后便开始有了两个超级普遍难题。

(二）

人在异地第一件必须要做的事情莫过于是打电话回家保平安。另一件事情则是可以随时随地上网。感谢研发智能手机的人，因为这两个功能在现时的社会已经合一。值得一提的是在英国真的是有够便利。在机场四周便能轻易地购买当地的预付电话卡，马上致电回家。此外现在的预付卡也包括了上网的配套。所以只要你是智能手机用户，那就说一抵达英国后就能直接拨电与上网，当场便解决了两个麻烦的问题，所需费用则是15磅。在拨电回家后便拖着厚重的行李往酒店出发。

沿途上看着不一样的景色。有不少大片绿油油的草地，草地上还有许多的马。没有了高楼大厦，计程车外都是超有英国风的低矮建筑物和双层式房子。不停地擦着双掌，当下的温度是10C。

(三）

"Hey Mr Lim!"

"Hey, wow how do you know I am Lim?"

"Of course I do."

在踏进酒店的同时迎面而来的是和善笑容，紧张的心情在当下放松不少。将行李置放在房间后便四处走走，想要多了解这个小镇。原来这里的超商可以自行用机器付账，不需要大费周章地排队。此外大部分的人都不会带现金上街，全赖debit卡付费。外头的天气超冷，就连呼吸都会颤抖，仿佛快感觉不到自己鼻子和耳朵的存在。摸了一摸自己的鼻子，心里想着还在，这样的举动不禁让人莞尔一笑。由于酒店里不便于煮食，所以当天的晚餐是又大又便宜的三文治。

这一晚我失眠了。时差的关系。

隔天的天气比昨天的还来得冷一些。需要穿上至少三层的衣服才足以御寒，真的是他妈的冷！听当地的人说上两个星期的天气好的不得了，但是这个星期却又变得格外地寒冷，还说这里的天气难以预测。原本以为现在已经是春天了，真的是有够带屎。这一天解决了许多问题，开了银行户口、找到了房间等等。晚上也利用了空余时间到伦敦走走。

这个城市真的非常地不一样。

(四)

一个星期就这样过去，期间与不少人通了电话。很谢谢猪朋狗友们的关心。

由于是第一个星期的关系，工作量并不是很多。与同事们交谈的时候，可以预测自己在不久的将来会很忙。正巧也碰上了难得的假期，我也顺利地从Leatherhead搬到了另一个叫Epsom的小镇。Epsom不大，胜在应有尽有，日常生活需要的用品与食物都可以很便利就找到。开始一个人的生活，也有许多自己一个人必须要面对的问题。譬如说搬来新的地方难免会缺少很多东西，所以需要逐一列明然后再来进货。新家离闹市谈不上遥远，但是却也不是很靠近。一个人很狼狈将东西一一扛回家，途中也因为太累所以必须停下来休息。忙了一整天终于停下来的时候，才发现天已转暗。异常静谧的环境顿时让自己觉得很寂寞。

这是我想念家人和朋友的第一个夜晚。

Remember

There will be an awful moment where you will miss your family and friends so badly. This feeling struck me yesterday and I felt like going home so badly. Sitting in the room alone without knowing what to do is so sucked. However this should be the transition period which I have to learn to adapt to the culture as well as the lifestyle here. UK is definitely a country worth trying and staying for a period of time, after all it may be the chance crosses only once in my life.

I always remember:
"never try, never know"

Thanks

一个人坐在飞机上
不知觉地想了很多很多
回忆起婆婆..真的很想念她
爸爸和妈妈..苍老的身影让人心痛
很感谢他们无私的爱与不断的包容
姐姐妹妹哥哥..在我回去的时候我会用更多的时间去关心彼此
还有在我身边总是不停包容照顾我的人

谢谢你们

UK first day

Finally I am leaving to the UK today. Saying goodbye to the family is not easy. Mom and sisters cried when I bid farewell with them at home. I am glad that I have stopped them from sending my flight in the airport or else I would feel even harder to leave. Special thanks to Eric for fetching me to the airport. I really appreciated it a lot. :)

This time gonna set a time frame for me to stay and work in the UK. Understand that the future is always unpredictable but at least it makes me feel better and there is something to look forward. A goal with clear objective is important and it is a driving force which motivates me to walk further.

I am going to miss everyone in Malaysia a lot. :)

Departure

yes leaving.

thank you for everything.

300312

离开你的时候
我歇斯底里地哭了
因为看见你眼里的无奈与不舍

其实

在我离开的时候
你也歇斯底里地哭了
因为你也看见我眼中的不舍和难过

我会努力地呼吸着有你的空气
期待着我们再重逢的唯美画面

Plan

getting closer to the departure date and start feeling the impact as it is always hard to leave family and friends behind. there are still many things to follow up this week and guess time will elapse again in the blink of an eye.

finished packing certain things today and shifted to the new house. when i looked at the new house the feeling was weird because i knew that i am not gonna stay in this house with my family.. at least this is not gonna happen this year. i can see the joy on mom's face when she looked around at every corner of the house. my elder brother is truly a capable person to have bought a house and settled everything by himself.

i am going to be 26 years old this year. the truth is i am getting older and so far i did not manage to save any money. start from next month onwards i have to start saving money, as much as i can and let's see how far i can go from this point..

13-03-12

Progress of this week:

1. Check if the HSBC credit card has been approved (rejected!!!!)

2. Update iphone IOS and jailbreak both phone and pad (IOS 5.1 cannot JB yet, haiz)

3. Pack stuffs - two boxes one is to courier to UK another one is to move to new house (in progress)

4. Get the UK accommodation done hopefully by this week (in progress)

5. Speak to UK people to get further details to courier the stuffs (done)

6. Farewell lunches and dinners (in progress)

7. Collect new IC (in progress)

8. Check PTPTN (in progress)

9. Change MYR to pounds (in progress)

10. Check if can get the last month salary (by this week)

11. Check contract details with Mehran (haiz)

Extra things done:

1. Registered HSBC account online

2. Hiking every morning

to be updated

10-03-12

will have to start packing stuffs next week. been so so reluctant to kick this start because i know that i will eventually get into a more-to-come/ more-to-go situation. this week was a productive week - thanks panda and eric for accompanying me to settle the personal stuffs. let's review what has been done this week:

1. Opened HSBC account & applied credit card

2. Got my ipad 2 & bought the cover and screen protector

3. Start hiking every morning

4. Got my laptop back from the service centre

5. Gone movie several times and sing k

6. Renewed IC and waiting for collection

Nevertheless there are still piles of things to be done:

1. Check if the HSBC credit card has been approved

2. Update iphone IOS and jailbreak both phone and pad

3. Pack stuffs - two boxes one is to courier to UK another one is to move to new house

4. Get the UK accommodation done hopefully by this week

5. Speak to UK people to get further details to courier the stuffs

6. Farewell lunches and dinners

7. Collect new IC

8. Check PTPTN

9. Change MYR to pounds

10. Check if can get the last month salary

11. Check contract details with Mehran

signing off..

Instinct

This is the indication. :)

Promise

我发誓

我会在你想着我的时候

用力地想着你

Summary of Recent Life

oh well oh well, i am leaving to the UK this time exactly after a year i returned from the UAE. although the stay in abu dhabi was a brief one, the experience really means a lot to me. for instance that was the first time i left home and worked in a foreign country (hmm 3 weeks), stayed alone and etc. so... this time i kind of like know what i should do before i leave home. counting down the days and i realized that i have only 30 days left before my departure to the UK! there are many people teasing me saying that they expect me to return within one month this time, giving me an allowance of extra 1 week compared to the 3-week stay in abu dhabi - LMAO. i told myself i must hang in there this time at least for few months (HAHA)!

honestly speaking i am looking forward to working in the UK this time however been reading negative news about Europe and UK recently and that really worried me as the economy is really unstable. if.. i am saying if i am really that bad luck then i have no other option but to return home again LOL. fortunately the oil and gas industry in malaysia looks good lately so i dont think that is a problem for me to secure a job, provided i get the chance for the interview. ;p working for 3 more days and will leave WP again. there is no way for me to get back to WP again (well at least not in such a short period of time). i know i will definitely miss friends in WP so so so much!

oh ya..! talk about the new house in sungai buloh - if things go smooth family and i will be shifting over to sungai buloh before i leave malaysia. the timing is just nice because i dont have to pack my stuffs into different boxes and ask my family to move them on my behalf. gonna spend quite a lot in moving house as well as the relocation to the UK. will be very very broke soon.. lol.

guess i have written too much in this blog entry...! lastly fingers crossed for everything!

170212

其实马来西亚也可以很美丽

Happy Valentine's Day

Sketch

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1st sketch after n years..

Hat Yai 2012

Seasons

love is seasonal

it grows in the season of spring

and blossoms in the season of summer

love is seasonal

it changes the colour in the season of autumn

and finally withers in the season of winter

love is seasonal

there the cycle starts anew when it meets spring

知足

Hi 你好

我的名字叫永鸿

今天我学会知足

你呢?

240112

感谢生命中遇见的每一个人

无论结局是好的还是坏的

都确确实实地留下了痕迹

人生际遇千百种

我会用力地呼吸着每一天

Missing You

first day of chinese new year and i dreamed of you again

ever since you left us i have been dreaming of you

perhaps i was just missing you too much

i rather convince myself that the dream is real

how many times i woke up in the middle of the night

in search of you and cried heartbreakingly

i could still remember every word you said in the dream

with your absence now i dont know where to express my feeling

but i really want you to know that

i really love you..

You

看了许多不一样的夜景

庆幸还有一样的你在身边

我想我够幸福了

Pray

Fingers crossed

放下

Don't seek for revenge when you are holding grudges against someone

You will find love in peace instead

2012

It has always been hard for me to write a blog in english, after all it's quite hard to express and share my thought in english. I guess it should be the right time to start this off. So, let's get it started with the 1st blog entry in year 2012.

2011 has just gone and everyone celebrated 2012 happily. was in singapore with high school frens and had lotsa fun. Been thinking of writing up a review for year 2011 somehow I dont know where I should start.

Year 2011 was a heartbreaking one because our beloved grandma has left us forever. It started with her falling onto the floor, fractured her bone, admitted to the hospital and passed away... in two weeks time. She was the greatest grandma in the world and I will always miss her.

Accepted the job offer in Abu dhabi and flew there to work. I was quite unfortunate because the company closed down due to financial problem. They could not sustain the employees in middle east because the HQ in UK has been bought by another company. Well to think on the bright side my return to kl was accepted by WP unconditionally. On top of that I have been promoted and got bonus and increment.

Bought a condominium in selayang because I think that it is the best time for some investment. I could not really save much therefore that was kind of "forced" saving. The construction gonna complete this year and let's see how things will go.

Been meeting new people and knowing different friends from various states or countries. Seeing people around us got into relationships or got married is really a wonderful thing.

I hope things will go smoothly in year 2012, not only to myself but family and friends too.

Happy New Year people :)

Infection

偷偷告诉你

我是一个带菌者

你会怕我吗

从此躲得远远的

可是我就是要这样毫无廉耻地缠住你

直到你也被感染变成病毒带菌者为止

你还会怕我吗

*好像忘了说

我是快乐带菌者